Thursday, October 28, 2010

cherry blossom

green tea dancing with tunes of sweet tang and floral ribbons.

another email from the assailant.  my ministry staff and i have been indulging him by responding to each of his accusational points and gently asking him to cease his slanderous tones.  however with each communication from us, he's been flinging back at us, not responses, but more of his opinions and arrows.

today's the limit.

i couldn't sleep at all two nights ago.  i went to an important meeting early the following morning, slow and zombie-fied.  i'd never been under such direct attack and blatant unmerited insults.  none of us have ever met this guy.

so today, the part of love that does not delight in evil, but embraces truth had to take action.

exhausted.  thank you, God for green tea and cherry.

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

vanilla comorro

black tea with a hint of vanilla--a scent that became wildly popular during the 90's and quickly nauseating in the 2000's.

this business of hating folk... truly a destructive force, i must say.  it doesn't necessarily propel as much anger as it boils, does it?

so after some time of wrestling with my utter hideousness, i've come to a conclusion--i have to let it go.  and it's not only possible, it's what this life is meant to do.

recently i came across some people whose philosophies were so set in stone in its most minor points that anything challenging those points in any hint of a way would be met with quick judgment and accusations.  there was a time when i was that way...

i do not regret my passion, nor what i stood for.  however i do regret the manner with which i communicated them. 

i can't continue to hate.  it's too energy-consuming.  and i need my energy to fight off the forces that attack those i love.

Saturday, October 23, 2010

chocolate souffle

honeybush, chocolate chips, cream caramel pieces, rosebud



birth of scraps




















having recently been blind-sighted a few times, by people i trusted, with information that they chose to use to sever their ties with me, i began to wonder if i'm the only one who lives the way i was taught--if something's wrong, fix it.

i was sitting in a cafe with a friend, talking about a film.  she was obscenely loud and the entire room was shooting surreptitious glares my way.  naturally she didn't notice.  she lived in freedom from social awareness.  however i couldn't bare disturbing others and i really couldn't stand her being THAT GIRL.  so i lowered my head and whispered to her that she was being a bit loud.

Monday, October 18, 2010

lemonade matcha

what is the thread in the human experience?
relationship.

there was a time when i would've answered "pain, significance, sex, or disappointment."  the last thing i would have thought of was relationship.  yet, each of my possible answers have an underlying origin--relationship.